I AM THANKFUL!
I know this may sound strange to some, given our circumstances, but I am thankful for SO MANY reasons!
First, I am thankful because we know why Pierce committed suicide. My heart aches for those who have lost a loved one to suicide and don't know why. The wondering, trying to piece it together, etc would drive me crazy! Even if he hadn't left us a note, we still knew why. It was obvious since he did it in his ex-girlfriends front yard. As my therapist said, 'He did it there because he was angry at her, not y'all.'
2nd - I am thankful we were living at our ranch instead of Lucas at the time he chose this. I had such bad anxiety afterwards, that it was nearly 2 months before I left the ranch because I didn't want to run into someone I knew. I can't imagine if we still lived in Lucas, where we knew someone in every neighborhood....I probably would have never left.
3rd - I am thankful for our new small town community. Especially the teens. They are so kind, caring, and protective of us. Several of the kids have literally adopted us, making sure we're okay, offering to help out any way they can. And not just at the time of his passing, but still to this day.
4th - our journey. It's not what I would have ever chosen in a million years, but I am learning to accept this path was given to us for a reason. I guess the subject of suicide needed a new advocate, so it got me!
Last - I am thankful to our friends, family, and God for holding us in your prayers and sustaining us for these last 20 months!
I AM THANKFUL!